crabby

I guess crabby is just about the best way to describe how I feel right now.

I have not been ‘going there’ very much with my thoughts or feelings and felt like I was doing ok this week.

But there have been these other little things that are bothering me. I can’t find some simple household objects that I need. Misplaced. Lost? I have no idea.  But I’d like to be able to put my hands on these things that just seem to have fallen off a cliff into the pit of nowhere.

And it’s just been gnawing at me.

Some of that hit the wall…and my family (sorry!) this morning. I wasn’t a pretty girl to be around. My husband finally decided I needed some ‘cinnamon roll therapy’ at our favorite brunch place. As an appetizer for our brunch/lunch. It was soo good. Things were looking up.

And then I noticed a little over halfway through my breakfast burrito that it had cheese in it. I can’t eat cheese and had asked for it not be there. Grrrrr. I stopped eating that and wondered if I was going to end up sick.

So I wasn’t in a great mood when we left after lunch. But we were laughing and I was trying to make the best of the day and let go of my awful emotions from earlier in the morning. We flipped on the a/c and headed out of the parking lot.

And then..poof. The a/c just quit on us. So I rolled down the window and we headed straight to the dealer to see if they could work us in or make us an appointment for next week. It turned out to be the later, so we headed on home with the windows rolled down.

Made me laugh and remember going on trips in the summer ‘back in the day’ before cars had air conditioning. My hair would feel like straw after blowing in the wind all day. Thankful we have a/c now.

But this whole thing has been weird. None of the things in and of themselves are a big deal. And just by themselves, I wouldn’t be having a melt down over any of it.

But there is the ‘other issue’ brewing under the surface. I feel like I am using everything I have to keep it in check and then add to that all these pesky details of life. I just can’t handle all of that.

Of course I can’t.

But Jesus can. And He came to take all these burdens that weigh me down and give me peace that is beyond my understanding. And even though I know that and have experienced it, I still forget and need to be reminded.

Thankful to be reminded today.